What do you do then?

All I want is to be with him and I can't be. It's all my fault. I can't stop loving him. I've tried. I've tried everything: focusing on me, trying to be with other guys, blaming him, even hating him...nothing helps. I know what he did was wrong but was it unforgiveable? I don't know anymore. Maybe I pushed him away and that's why he stopped loving me. I don't really blame him. I probably would have given up too.

This is how I feel: